I have been scrapbooking since I was sixteen years old. It has become more then a hobby, it is my therapy and a way for me to count my blessings. I almost gave up this hobby when my older son, Caleb, was diagnosed with a genetic neuromuscular disease in 2009. It was too painful to think that my child would not have the "normal" pages in his scrapbooks - you know, his first steps, running on the playground, and playing sports. My life was now filled with doctor and therapy appointments.
Guilt is what kept me going. My younger son, Zachary, was two months old and there were no scrapbook pages featuring him. I decided I would scrapbook his first year then pack up my paper crafting supplies. But then an amazing thing happened. God used my scrapbooks to begin healing my heart. I realized that even though our life was shadowed by Spinal Muscular Atrophy, my boys were still smiling in the pictures. They were happy and having a good life. What I thought would be a painful reminder of what our life wasn't quickly became a way to count my blessings. I realized that I still had so much to be thankful for. With this realization, scrapbooking became my passion!
My wonderful husband has been bugging me to start a blog, to showcase various pages and cards I have made. I always shrugged him off, saying I didn't think my work was good enough and that no one would be interested.
Dave passed away a little over two weeks ago. He was a New York State Trooper and killed in a car accident while conducting a routine traffic stop. He was my best friend and the love of my life. I adored him and he adored me. Our marriage was wonderful. My heart is broken. For the first time in 18 years, he is not here to ring in the new year with me. I feel so alone without him.
So my New Year's resolution is to make Dave proud of me! I'm going to do what he had been encouraging me to do for years. I'd love to think I'd post every day, but now that I'm a single parent, it might be a couple of times a week.
The layout featured at the top of this post is one of my favorites. It was a kit from Embellish It! and all I had to do was put it together and add the pictures. The photos were the last "official" family portraits taken of us by Hannah Balta of HB Photography, in December 2012.
What I love about this layout is the saying at the bottom of the right page, "All because two people fell in love." Dave and I were very much in love. I still am . . . .